50 never looked so good

I think there are certain instincts given naturally to different genders. I am noticing these things in myself as of late. In a way it is kinda of scary, because it reminds me I am growing up. I think that's why 'peter pan' is so wondrous, to stay in the ecstasy of child-likeness where happy thoughts make you fly and the only dreadful thing to worry about is pirates. Yet, In a way, it is comforting seeing the change in myself, the maturing.
When I watch her, the way she folds laundry or even the way she makes me smile no matter what battles are raging inside of me, I find I am taking notes. She has her adorable and child-like qualities too, like before she does her shopping she always finds a bag of chocolate and opens it right there in the store, before any official payment as been made. She says "shopping is more enjoyable with chocolate" so we walk along sucking on our chocolates, as little children jealously stare. The cashiers always gives a confused look when we put an empty bag on the conveyor belt for them to scan.
I think above all, it is her presence, everyone knows when she walks into a room. The Joy that surrounds her like an invisible glow lighting her eyes. When she walks in, any tension that was once there disappears, as we all gawk at her beautiful elegance. 50 never looked so good.
I pray that I will grow to be a woman like her someday, perfectly adorable even her flaws, subtly confident, dramatically generous, and lowly in all her ways. Even if I should not have the beauty, I find that I am striving to become a woman as lovely as Nanette Taitt.