Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Birth and Poetry

April 28th was my brother's Birthday. He is 22 now. I wrote him this...

We are poetry, he says
Step after step
Under bright lights that drown out the stars.
You commission them to turn off.

defeat takes his seat
back on the brick sign

We are poetry, I reply
glance after glance
over the cement guard rails onto the highway, we tower.
Vertigo takes it's toll.

fears too subtle for fears
along we walk again.

We are poetry
Smile after smile
On abandoned soccer seats we tell of
lullabies our futures tease.

songs we hope will play along
until another tune catches our ear.

You are poetry, the moon shouts
We scream "we love you, moon!"
We hold the jealousy of Robert Frost, the admiration of an
only child, the appreciation from words that have so long been
ill-used. The declaration of never-ending train tracks. The
motivation of inspiration and understanding hearts.

Yes, my brother, we are poetry indeed.

Monday, April 20, 2009

I finally found where I belong

Safety and Normalcy

I have been here already 4 weeks. The Lord has been so faithful in making this transition non-existent. I find that everything I have given up there, I have received in greater quantity in different ways here. Of course I have irreplaceable relationships at home, but I find the new ones are just as irreplaceable and meaningful. To Love with out reason is so freeing.

I do about 40-50 hours in the prayer room. I really thought that this would be the hardest transition. To go from the racing and running to sitting and waiting. From the first minute I sat down in the old fashioned ill-lit room, I fell in love with it. It feels so normal to just sit for 8 hours a day and do nothing but talk to the Lord. I feel like I really have found where I belong. There have been no bolts of lightening or thunderous rapids but in the slowness of His speech I have found a safety and a love completely undeniable, unbearable, unexplainable, unthinkable and I will never let go of it.

I praise God for His faithfulness. I have obediently followed what He spoke to me, and He has not left me high and dry. Thank you Father!!!