Instead

When I feel like taking a bath, and I want to stay in until the water gets cold, because it is the only place I can truly be alone. Instead I add bubbles and make up a song to sing.
When I feel like staying in bed for 30 minutes after I wake up, just to think about it all. Instead, I will get up and do Cinderella's morning routine (minus the mice).
When I feel like wasting my time to look at all the pictures on their facebook, the ones I am no longer apart of (or ever was for that matter). Instead, I go and look at photography on flickr. When I look at beautiful pictures, I can't help it but I always cry.
When I feel like closing the door and pushing my back into the heater mounted on the wall. Instead, I will fling the door wide open and dive into the day as if it were deep water.
When I am afraid, and I want to stay quite. Instead, I will tell stories of my childhood to remember who I am.
When I am hurt, and I want to hate. Instead, I will lay in the arms of my Beloved, and let Him whisper my heart back to life and into love!

Today is that day. I am diving in with a humbled heart, and a new tune in my head, with confidence in my beloved. I will not be afraid, I will choose love.
I will always choose love!