I will be thankful

It's been awhile since I wrote on here...sorry folks!

I went back to Georgia for a wedding and some graduations this past week. I haven't felt that alone in so long. These people that I got to see are wonderful, I love them all so much. We had a pleasant reunion, but amidst all the "I miss you!'s" and "how have you been?" "what have you been up to?'s" I still felt a loneliness. Not in the sense that I felt companionless, but in the sense that I now stand apart. I am not apart of what they are apart of anymore, and they don't agree with what I am standing up for. I stood in a room full of people that I once felt a kindredness with and felt lonely.

I know this move is where the Lord wants me. I know that my loneliness will only serve to make me rely more on Him and His love. So I am truly thankful. As I see my friends graduating and getting ready for the next step, as I see my friends getting married and having babies I will be grateful for where the Lord has me. I know my calling isn't normal. I know I stand alone. but it is in this solitude that the Lord has made His presence known, so I will be thankful.

I have chosen to be apart of the prayer movement here in North Carolina. I am slowly and sometimes painfully being transformed. Nothing compares to one day in the presence of the Lord. I choose to give it all up for the sake of knowing Him in a greater way. He is worth it. In Him I have found my rest, my song, my hiding place. I will be thankful as the Lord sets me apart. He is Holy, and so I desire to be Holy!