Lately I have been feeling still. Just no progress at all, I feel like I am going in circles and going through all the motions but not really getting anywhere. Like a treadmill or a stair master. I know this isn't always a bad thing and that sometimes it's the waiting that makes it good. I know that just because God is silent at times doesn't mean He doesn't exist. spell check just informed me that I have been spelling "exist" wrong all my life.
It's gotten to the point where I wont listen to any new music. It is an odd form of complacency but I used to hate it when people were closed minded about listening to new music. Now I just want what I know and I'm good. I want to thirst for the unknown again. To crave a new beat, to dance to something different. I mean that in more ways than one.
They say that after you do something the same for three weeks it becomes a habit. i read that in a book called the newspaper or the internet or something :]]. I have noticed all the random habits I have been building. just like routines that I am getting into, and honestly as comforting as that should be it dismantles my brain. I just want to run and be spontaneous and see that what I am doing is making a difference.
I am scared of this, but it in it's own way it is sort of adventurous. I don't know what it means to stay in one spot...i am just going to make sure it doesn't last any longer than 21/2 weeks...I don't want to make a habit out of this.
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complacency is the beast that satan uses to bring us down and just let us start slippin. it reminds me of narnia when the kids are in this dark city and this witch tells them that their is no son and its all a lie and that they are imaging things!
just remember that Gods blessing a new with each morning.and dont worry i think its normal it happens to me too just when you realize your doing it get a plan going to get out of it!
I slip into times like that too. And like you said, they're not good or bad. It seems like you just go day to day without much hesitation. But eventually you snap out of the trance and "re-realize" life.
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